A Price to pay...
There is a price to pay...
I openly gave all the Glory and Honor to God for the success of a great event and was phoned within 2 hours after the article I wrote to remove the praises to God, I refused to do it because I know that no one living on this Earth can achieve his next breath without God. Three days later I was driving home after work and was thinking about the day and about really nothing much when suddenly a voice spoke to me, I believe it was a Angel of the Lord. The voice asked me:” Are you sure you don’s want to remove the Praises and Honor from my article, I replied with no doubt, NO, I am sure that this is what I want because I made a promise to God that if He help me to succeed then I will give openly all the Glory and Honor to Him and God did help us indeed. The Angel then said: “ you know there is a price to pay? I replied that I am willing to pay the price. The Angel then said: “ even if it cause you to lose your job? I replied, yes, even if it cost me my job I don’t care.
There is a price to pay and I am willing to pay the price even though I did not truly understand the extend of the price I was going to pay.
When I was about 20 minutes drive away from home I spoke to the Lord and said, Lord, it is time, I want to work full time in your Kingdom and want to enter into my destiny You have planned for me. I arrived home and the email cam through that I am made redundant. Wow Lord, I was in awe and went into the upper room and gave all praises to God, I can really see God working in my life.
The next day I asked the Lord if I am really paying the price because of His Name and if just maybe it is just a coincidence. Then the Lord God Almighty answered my question as I was offered another job but at a third of my salary, well this mean a two third salary cut, this is 66,667% cut and it works out exactly R666 per R1000 cut, I then saw the number of satan and knew. I do not think that the bosses know how exact it worked out and don’t blame them either, I have in my heart nothing against them but I know that satan was pulling the strings behind the curtains.
I knew that it was time to work full time for God but like humans are I started a business instead and planned to do God’s work after hours but God stopped me from any success till I dropped down on my knees and asked:” Lord Jesus, what is wrong, why am I not blessed in business like before and why does nothing work out? Then God spoke:’ you are not in My Will for your life. I then asked God to speak with me and opened the Bible exactly on the verse He gave me many years ago when God called me to work for Him. Jeremiah 1
Then the word of the Lord came unto me, saying,
5 Before I formed thee in the belly I knew thee; and before thou camest forth out of the womb I sanctified thee, and I ordained thee a prophet unto the nations.
6 Then said I, Ah, Lord God! behold, I cannot speak: for I am a child.
7 But the Lord said unto me, Say not, I am a child: for thou shalt go to all that I shall send thee, and whatsoever I command thee thou shalt speak.
8 Be not afraid of their faces: for I am with thee to deliver thee, saith the Lord.
When I read this my heart trembled, then the Lord told me to fetch my old Bible I received when I was 7 years old in 1977. The Lord then told me that I have underlined this verse and have written a date next to it and I will see that the date will be exactly right. I could not even remember that I have written a date next to it but I rushed down the stairs, fetched my old Bible and came to the upper room, opened the Bible at Jeremiah 1 and there it was, the date 19 May 1986. I looked at the date and said, Lord this date is wrong, it is today the 2nd of Agugust and not the 19th of May. Then the Lord said, go and look at your retrenchment date, so I rushed to my computer and looked for the retrenchment letter, exactly the date, the 19th was the Sunday, the Monday morning the 20th when I arrived at work I was told to go and not to work any further. This is how accurate the Lord is and how I went of the way even though I did know that I was suppose to start working full time in the End Time Harvest. So 33 years ago I wrote down the day and the month, the 19th May was the day God ordained me and the 20th I was released from the earthly tasks before I even could start my day.
Today I am paying the price yes but mostly paying the price for being disobedient to Gods calling on my life, it is not a easy journey ahead of me but if only I have kept faithful to Gods calling. Now I have tried so hard, I have begged God, I cried before Him but this case stand firm with the Lord, it is time. I don’t know how it will work and I don’t know what to do but I will prepare myself and walk in His presence so I won’t stumble and fall. Please pray for me, I need it desperately.
There is a price to pay for serving the only One and True God, the world will push you aside and will hate you because a servant is not greater than his Master.
Lord Jesus I pray, let Your Will be done, let Your Kingdome come, Your will for my life and not my will. For days I were living with no hope as I was not in Your Will and I beg You Lord Jesus, I beg You to forgive me for being disobedient to You, I fear You with all I am , my legs are trembling, my walk have become paralyzed as I stumbled and crumbled to my knees before You my King. Who can stand before You? Who can live when You take your hand of us? Even those who does not serve you will perish to dust if Your Eyes are not on them, with so much love you sustain us and keep us.
Lord I pray, I beg, please help me now as You have chosen the weakest under men and I have nothing to offer, nothing great to help me succeed, all I have is total dependence on You, I cry out to You my God, have mercy on us, please help me to become strong, to do Your Will. Amen